Hey, I guess its been such a long time. A lot has happened, and a lot is going on as usual. I mean come on, people got lives to live and things to do. I get it.
I was married October 4th, 2017 to my husband. We have a house, and a life together.
I still don't talk to my family(I guess they have disowned me)(its been over 4 years since I have talked to them) (off and on with my older sister Jen-but barely talking to her)
I find myself working at the computer, and thinking about my life. What I could have done better, the regrets, If's &'s But's...
I still find myself searching, and yearning. One day I'll find balance-I hope.
I will be posting some things I have been working on ever since I got my new computer.
I recently upgraded my Maxon C4D License to r20 and trying to work on upgrading my graphics card in this computer to something that can handle the payload of my demands. Until then, I will continue to work on what I have and use RenderFarm for what my computer cannot handle.
If you have somehow stumbled onto my page(Age of account: 14 years old) then please say hello.
To those who have fav'd my latest not so recent works, I thank you.
I want to keep this short, so again, thanks for reading this, and acknowledging that Im still alive.
<3
John Solits
Fathers Day Surprises
Not knowing it was fathers day... I woke up in the morning(yesterday)
and said to myself, "I wish I could talk with my Dad, it's been a while since I've chatted with him.."
Just moments from getting infront of my comptuer an hour before midnight, I get an email from him.
"Hey Son, it's Dad, give me a Call" and he provided his number, and I called him immediately.
We talked for a while, and I enjoyed every minute of it... for some reason or another... he really made me feel good, and deep down honestly-made me a hell of a lot more happier. You know how Dads are suppost to teach their sons things in life... though my father hasn't been around much, it's great to reconnect with him. We talked about everything, he's very happy right now, and even more so, Lydia his Wife(his Mexican Princess) came on the phone a couple times telling me that my Dad is so happy that I called, and he's smiling so big, and that she hasn't seen him smile like that in a very long time.
I Love my father so much, and he knows that.
I look forward to reconnecting with him.
Great news though, he's moving to Florida!! I didn't even know this until after I moved here myself... so it seems that.. things are finally pickup up and getting better then better.
Me developing a much needed relationship with my Father is what I needed... and being patient, and waiting... it's finally happening. I'm totally thrilled as well as very excited to not only hear his voice but for him to tell me that he's moving to Florida, though still a little father away down here, but he's close... and looking forward to seeing him and telling him in person that I love him.
Aside from that, things are going well! I'm moving to Sarasota for work and hopefully to really get started. I'm excited, thrilled, and very optimistic about the move.
Anywho... thank you for taking the time to read this.
XOXOX
to everyone!!!
John
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wOOT, THANKS TO THEprophetMOSES
for capturing my 15,000 Page view.Thanks to everyone to took part in that!!!!! Animation Celebration is coming soon to signify it!
was chilling infron of the pc, pulled up "You Don't Know Jack Vol3" And played a few games in there... got bored, then decided to have a go at connect my 80gig sata. Woot, it works, I cleaned my pc up some and dropped most of my stuff onto it.
Working in Realflow & C4D more, and trying to figure out meshing with realwave© it's pretty confusing. Also trying to get the parameters correct for a water splash I'm working on. New Ram in it now finally so it'll easy the strain of computing and calculating of those particles.50K Here's something if... I Hit 20k within now and forever... whom ever gets it makes a screen capture of it, and in their form a representation of what is feels like, and personalized for me... and send it my way... will get a years Sub
(or if you're kind enough to donate it to someone I would be more then happy to send it their way 
) sounds good?Aside from that... MY life.. seems to become more happier as the days go on. Details for that will be given soon. Along with some poems.
La la la la la la la la 7:48am.. I so need to get my sleep clock set correctly. Even though I'm happy, I cant seem to sleep well... or sleep at all.. I don't do sleeping meds anymore, b/c they complicate everything.
Working out more and more now finally getting to a desired weight, only months away.
! ! !...My Ac is bugging the hell out of me right now( 7:49 ) it's making a odd noise from the shade that is pulled in front of it. I hate anything that is causing air movement to touch my body.. but I don't mind it being cold.. but when I'm half dressed... and not wanting the wind direction toward me... I get pissy.. ( which leads me into my next paragraph w/run on sentences!!)
Anywho.. if you're not on my friends list and would like to be added let me know.. a while ago I seem'd to have deleted everyone b/c of depression. so yeah.. and I got pissed on by a lot of you guys for doing that.. really upset me too.. so yeah.. if you don't want to be on my friends list anymore... let me know, I'll be more then happy to have take you butt off of it
Check out my TaB link at the top of the journal for different ways to interact with me
Special thanks to The Artist of this CSS
This lovely was designed by sketched-dreams and tweaked and coded by spud100.
You can find this CSS Layout here
yada yada... V-ray for C4D
more to come!Also to note, I corrected the download problem with my last tut, seems that I didn't attach the file like it should and made the photo avail for download instead.. haha fixed!!
